today i had the intense feeling that i just want to go home. it started out as a measly craving for the american little debbie cake, and then it turned into a pouring of wanting to go home. especially so that i can actually walk during graduation. or is it even a big deal? i will be graduating, but i just won't be there to experience that feeling of walking across that stage shaking hands with shirley raines,and the other administration. hmm. i guess it will be ok. i just have to keep telling myself it will be ok. education was/is such a big deal to my parents, but they definitely understood when we were talking on the phone about me possibly coming home just to graduate. wow. i can imagine the immense amount of jet-lag and shock i would experience during that period of time. i can only dream, because it will not be happening for me. it will be ok.
today i went to the marelybone dance center and took my first 50/50 technique ballet class(from the same teacher who has taught me floor barre) since i have been in London. i have been introduced to floor barre which has been a whole different language to me. floor barre focuses on alignment. like really focuses on alignment. it allows you to feel certain positions within your body that you wouldn't normally feel. i guess that is good, but i always feel like i am doing it wrong, so i don't know beneficial it has been to me. haha. but i will be taking this ladies classes until the end of the semester. so we will see. i feel like one day i will gain a new way of placing my body...but we will see...only time will tell...
only two more days to my audition for the london school of contemporary dance....
I am thinking about the girl, lea sussman, who told me about this school two summers ago at the american dance festival, and now i am in london auditioning for a place in the school. so blessed. may god's will be done in all things. amen.
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